The largest I've seen

This mausoleum is so big, the caretakers call it "megamall."

Grabe talaga. Kahit we already know that it's size is equivalent to 6 normal-sized mausoleum, overwhelming pa rin nung nakita namin in person. Hindi ko nga mapagkasya sa isang frame. I had to photostitch three photos para lang ma-capture ng buo. Nakikita niyo ba yung red things sa gitna ng photo? Yan ang mga groupmates ko. Ganyan sila kaliit at ganyan ka-massive ang mala-palasyong himalayang ito.

By the way, isa pa lang ang nakalagak diyan. Yung matriarch yata nung pamilya. Tapos, nakareserve ang 40 bonebanks, at ilan pang nitso (I forgot kung ilan eh basta lampas 10 yata).

LIKE WOAH.

The mausoleum has a bedroom sa second floor, above the kitchen. Kumpleto talaga with CR, dining room, etc. May mga expensive objects sa loob like coffee tables na ceramics ATA yung material basta mukhang mamahalin.

Sa tapat nung main door, merong malaking cross. sa left side ng cross,may statue ni Mary. Sa right side, si Buddha. Hydrid di ba. Sa taas ng altar na ito ay isang dome na pinagawa pa nung may-ari sa ibang bansa.

LIKE WOAH AGAIN.

Can't help but wonder kung saan maaring mapunta pa ang perang ginastos nila dito...

Sa red cross kaya? Sa GK? Sa kythe? sa helping hands?

Tss...

Sabi nga ni Rom Dongeto (at HINDI ni colt45/pepsi endorser Bamboo),

habang may tatsulok...

ayun lang.

It's ego-crushing and heart-grinding to tell someone you like that you think you are not good enough (very long first sentence). Not that it's the first time I felt this. But this is the first time I actually did it. This is so depressing.

Maybe this is the first step towards decreasing my man-sized ego.

Oh wait. Not really. Last Wednesday, I apologized to my motorsports classmates because they blamed me for all the mishaps we had. I told them that maybe they weren't mishaps but errors-- my errors, because I am not that good in directions (maybe, just like them?). Imagine, I actually allowed Carlo to belittle me. I think, it gave him a very good feeling. Kind of refreshing for him (ok stop, I am being mean).

Another, on our way back to Manila, Caloi and I played pitik-bulag on the bus. I was such a loser. My hand was so red so I gave up. I told Caloi that he just found a game that he is very good at.

I am not really good at telling people that they are better than me. Most of the time, I shut my mouth instantly when I realize that. But now, I am trying to praise people more often.

a little preview from our trip
(yuck parang angspecial)

I still haven't uploaded our photos from the field trip because I am super busy right now. I had a fun time with Caloi. I think we had the most laughs (and giggles haha) on our "fuckkillmarry" game. I pirated the game from somebody's blog. and it goes like this: another person will give you three names and you will decide who among these three will you fuck, kill and marry.

I had the hardest time deciding on the first set that Caloi gave me. But I am proud to say that I chose to KILL "neo." Actually, after that, Caloi wouldn't include him anymore because he was sure to be killed. haha. double-dead.

Here were SOME of the sets I gave Caloi, try to guess how he assigned them:
mam moreno, mam dacquel, mam nuestro
oprah, PGMA, (I forgot the last one)
james, jonas, carlo
lorine, ruth, kimie (peace!)

I'm in a state of shock.

Bakit ganoon?






















Corrupted yung DVD kung saan nilagay ko yung lahat ng photos ko from Gelene's birthday (Nov24), pag-alis ni Kate, Imma's debut, photoshoot with Kimie and HIV, fastfood sessions, lantern parade, Manila, Magallanes, vanity photos, Kimie's shooting, etc.. hanggang sa fanatic photo with Ping.

Nabura ko na lahat ng iyon sa pc at inenjoy ko pa yung crunchy sound ng empty recycle bin.




Thank God, may multiply.



Pero paano na yung mga hindi ko pinost sa multiply?





Moments attempted to be preserved are now moments eternally lost.

Sad.

Nakakapanlambot ng tuhod...

Who was with Ping Medina?

Napapaisip talaga ako dun sa ImaheNasyon, kung ano ba talaga yung kunek ng mga pinapalabas sa konsepto. Hindi tuloy namin naubos ni Mai ang aming nacho cheese at sourcream popcorn. Tsk. Pero matino talaga. At kung kras niyo si Ping tulad ko, isang higanteng eyecandy ito!

Spoiler man, pero paborito ko yung tungkol sa utak (Local Unit by Tad Ermitaño). Na by 2072, ang mga maralitang Pilipino, magbebenta na ng mga utak para lang mabuhay ang kanilang mga pamilya. Kahit wala si Ping sa film na iyon, ok lang. Ay nandun pala siya, nakaprint yung mukha niya sa tshirt. Isa ko pa ring paborito yung "Barado. " Kinuhanan siya sa isang CR sa Chem Pav. Kailan kaya yun ginawa, sayang hindi ko nakita.

I couldn't stop talking about Kate while we were on the trip. Kasi naman mula ng umalis siya nagabstinence na ako sa pagwiwindow shopping. Kanina na lang ulit..Isang malaking factor sa buhaybahay ko ang kaplpakan ng cellphone ko. Epal nga naman, sa tuwing may kailangang kitain sa UP mag-ooff. hmpf. Kapag tatawagan ako, malolowbat. Hay naku. Ayan tuloy hindi na ako makapag-after class lakwatsa. Kamalasan.

Narealize ko talaga kung gaano ako ka-giddy giddy girl. Sus naman. Antanda ko na pero ganito pa rin ako. So hayskul. So fangirl. No wonder nahulaan agad ni Ping na mga estudyante kami. Kung hindi lang talaga nagsshake ang mga kamay ko, gagayahin ko si Mai na nakipagshake hands. Augh. Di bale, shinake ko na lang rin hands ni Mai afterwards. haha.

Aysus, andaming kulay ng kuko ko kakagamit ng mga tester na nail polish. Pero hindi ko muna buburahin para remembrance ng araw na ito. Such a day. Salamat Mai!

click

Is this 126?

I think I found a gorgeous photo with 126 in it. WOAH. The photo is from Jospeh's LJ. I don't really know him but he's from UP and he hangs out in "Chinatown." His photos were really great. Ayoko na sanang ipromote siya kasi I'm all insecure because he's on LJ spotlight pero I have no choice but to drop his link here. haha.

Kaso, about the photo, I'm having some doubts if this is really the person I admire from afar.

Nathania, si 126 ba yan?

But in case that person is not 126, well, I crush him too now! Sabi nga ni Kate, "The lips!"

On another note, nandito na naman ako sa phase na kinaaasaran ko ang sarili ko kasi nahihilig ako ng sobra sa photography.

Bakit ako naaasar?

Nadadalian ako sa proseso ng paggawa ng magagandang photographs. Point and shoot digital cameras at the magic of photoshop.

I always feel guilty when I enhance photos in photoshop. Purist na ideya. But I have nothing against utilizing photoshop's magic. I even use it myself. There's nothing wrong in taking advantage of the technological advances. But these advances also make it hard to distinguish people who are actually good in TAKING photos and those who are good at ENHANCING them digitally or those who are good at both. I have respect for the three kind but I really think that it is important to distinguish them from one another. Para sa akin, malaking pagkakaiba talaga.

I really can't help but love photographs, and taking them and posting them online. Kasi nga, it's easier to produce wonderful things from it, capture something from the material world and express things I have in my mind than drawing/sketching and writing. Ewan.

Before I end this incoherent post, I just want to say that Jared Leto's eyes and the lunacy encapsulated in them are amazing (in Requiem for a dream). The hottest person I saw in skinny jeans is Ewan Mcgregor (trainspotting). Ping Medina, I crush you but I'm too shy to drop a comment on your blog/multiply because I don't want to be a giddy fangirl (but I really am a giddy fangirl of yours!). hahaha.

Daming boys ah. Kasi walang boys.
Ay anlabo ko.

The heart's day is done

This is kind of late but I hope all of you had a happy day.

I did!

Thanks to Hannah Caloi and Gelene.
(Plus the "itlog" that really made me laugh!)

"learn how to segregate your hearts"

at Vinzon's Hall while waiting for Gelene

onti na lang macoconvince na ulit akong mag-LJ.

hahaha

This is in memory of Ruth and Leo (wish there's an LJ cut for this)

(Sounded like they 've passed away. No.)

I had so much fun with the two of you. I used to be scared for things might be boring for you and you'd realized how much time, effort and money you've wasted just to be with me. I never wanted anyone doing that for me. If there would be any effort and time wasted, I always want it to be mine (money? I don't want to waste any money at all. haha kuripot).

I could narrate everything that happened and make all our other friends envy (because they turned down my invitation! haha) but I couldn't find any coherence in me right now. Every detail of our day was in a way, surreal.

Who wouldv'e thought I'd have the guts to take photos using my poor digicam during the exhibit?

How much of the insights we got from Wawi Navarozza have inspired us?

Did we really laughed that hard over your spaghetti meals?

Why did we decide to walk that long street?

And why did we pose and take emo photos of ourselves on closed stalls, painted walls, an abandoned building, posters, company logos and corporate buildings along Magallanes?

And Leo, why did we allow ourselves to get lost that long?

How come we suddenly became interested on composing a song having "go, let's go sagoww" and "ohhh maayy god, higad" as the only lyrics?

How did we find the place was also a question in spite of Micah's misdirections (hallooo Micah! Leo called you a probinsyana because you said it was just NEAR Farmer's market! hehe..Thank you Mai for enlightening us!).










And when we found Bellini's, why did I forget about the toy cameras I was saving for and decide to eat there in spite of my tight budget?







We know we looked stupid, but why did we take photos of ourselves as if we're dragons/ walruses/ sabertooth tigers at a very romantic restaurant?






Incomprehensible up to now.





It was not extravagant, nor fantastic. It was not any word that could be followed by an exclamation mark. But just the adjectives followed by an ellipsis... for I didn't want it to have a concrete end.

"Ate, bakit ba walang pera basurero?"

She asked me that question while we were having lunch and the garbage truck passed by. Oo nga naman, bakit ba walang pera eh may trabaho naman, marangal, may pakinabang. Pero why? WHY? WHY?!

Una kong naisip isagot: una kasing dapat tanong, bakit ba basurero lang sila. Pero hindi ko sinabi kasi naisip ko rin, eh ano naman kung hindi sila nakapag-aral? Kapag ba lahat ng tao nakapag-aral hindi na natin kailangan ng basurero? I don't think so.

So malamang ang sagot na naman diyan eh ang stratification ng ating society. I am so much of a mind person kaya feeling ko wala akong karapatang kwestyunin kung bakit ba mas mahal ang bayad pag ginagamitan ng isip ang trabaho mo kaysa sa ginagamitan ng katawan. Sabi nga ng National Bookstore, invest in your mind.

Sabi dati sa anthro, ganoon daw talaga, yung mga scholars they put the mind above the body. Pero isipin natin thoughts are useless without actions. Kailangan talaga we view them equally, that human beings are composed of a dyad that defines their limitations and capacities.

the rest of the photos here

wind chill

Anlamig ng panahon sa ngayon. At ito ay isang masayang bagay. Pwede na nating gayahin ang mga idol na F4 at maglayer layer baga ng damit. Pwede na rin tayong may scarf at bonnet, maski gloves pa tapos boots. Magandang excuse rin para yakapin ang katabi. Hindi nga lang maige na magsuot ng paldang pwedeng liparin ng hangin. Anu ba, para akong weather reporter/fashion consultant. Pero hindi . Gusto ko lang mangiti lalo pa't may mga taong tulad ni Ruth na gusto kong makita na naka off-shoulder daw na long sleeves dahil hinahayaan siya ng panahon. Siguro kung andito si Kate magugustuhan niya rin ang ganito. Siguro si Lorine hindi na yellow kundi ube na. Si Angeline kaya mas puputi? Si Leo siguro mawawala ang pimples dahil lesser oil. Si Kimie siguro nakababa ang windows at sumisigaw ng "Wooooo!" Si Gelene, finally, justified ang paglayer ng kasuotan. Ako, heto at giniginaw, nakabathrobe na galing sa Hawaii at iniisip kung kasama ko lang sana ang mga malalapit na kaibigan e di sana maiibsan ang pagkaulila ko sa kanila.

Kidlat Tahimik's Talk

Nakonsensya akong ipost ng buo ang mga kuha ko sa Lopez Museum kasi bawal talaga magpichur. Kaya ayan, maliit lang at cropped!


I had to attend an artist's talk at the Lopez Memorial Museum. Mukhang meet and greet Kidlat Tahimik kasi yung mga tao doon parang tinuring siyang artista, with matching photo op after the discussion. Naiinis ako. Is this a proof of how showbusiness has affected people's way of thinking? Iniisiip ng lahat ng tao kapag may taong nagsalita sa harap blah blah eh kailangan ng atensyon. Buti hindi nila tinanong kung paano magsend ng text votes for him. Tinanong pa kung bakit Kidlat Tahimik ang pangalan niya. Although iniisip ko na rin yun on my way there. Kasi daw, he likes the idea of a silent energy at si Kidlat Tahimik daw ay character niya sa una niyang film.


O baka kaya iba ang dating niya kasi nga Indie filmmaker siya? Like what was said by our ACLE speaker- Sigfreid Sanchez, ang pinakabagong pick-up line na raw ay:
"Hi, I'm an indie filmmaker."


Been talking about this person, baka naman hindi niyo siya kilala. Before this event I've only heard him in some history related stuffs. I just knew he was a filmmaker/artist. At alam ko rin na he was a big name.
I learned a lot of insights from his talk. Not just artsy stuffs but generally about society. He was fed up with the city life. Nakatira na siya ngayon with the Ifugaos in Banaue planting rice. He started teaching the people there how to use the video camera to document their diminishing culture. Iniisip niya na in his little way, maibabalik niya ang pride in being an Ifugao sa kanila.


Just like Sigfreid Sanchez' message, he was trying to encourage people especially independent filmmakers to hear their social conscience. Make films, not for generating money and pleasing Mother Lily, but for the Filipino people to take pride in being a distinct culture.


He also coined his own term for describing the effects of globalization-- LAHARI-ZATION. He forsees the effect of it using the vast lahar plains caused by Mt. Pinaubo's erruption as a metaphor to a homoginized and boring world.

Last na. He also said something about an inner dwende. Ito raw ang unique entity in each of us. He said we have to listen to that voice instead of copying everything we see.



On my way home, I was trying to listen to that inner dwende of mine. Una sabi niya, pumunta daw ako sa Megamall at itry ang Kripy Kremes. And so I did. It was really nothing special. Para lang siyang yung donut na tinitinda sa kantong bakery except that the glaze was a little crispy. Sinayang ko lan ang pera ko. Tapos nung nasa tapat naman ako ng Cubao, inisip kong bumaba ng bus at tumungo sa Cubao X. Kahit silip lang ayos na. For a couple of minutes nakatigil yung bus. AT HINDI PA AKO NAGBABAYAD noon kaya I won't lose anything kung bumaba man ako. But I said no to myself. Iniisip ko kasi it's not time yet. daaaa.. andrama. At saka, mas "cinematic" isulat if this would remain a frustration kaysa pag natupad. haha etchos.


So I spent my bus ride time overthinking. Not thinking over. That would be an understatement. OVERTHINKING: Being an artist. Other people's lives. What is wrong with this country as reflected by the people I saw on the road. If it is right to let Ifugao and other tribes believe in many gods. How do I concieve success. Would I rather be a single parent. That UP students are trained to see that there is something in the world and that they have to make it better. That artists will always have an element of being egocentric. Am I causing moral deterioration by not paying that bus ride. And many more.

I can't help but smile. :D

Today made me smile a lot already. I love smiling today. I'm such a giddy giddy person. And today, I am not annoyed by it.

I realized how fun it is to spend time with people. In my UP Diliman life rght now, solitude is so permanent such that being wih other people is a strange occurence. I was telling some of my friends how this kind of environment can cause my insanity. Fortunately, my mind is still in tact and functioning. Good.

Today, we had an activity for motor sports (my PE class) a la Amazing Race. It was so fun. We got lost in the middle of the race but when we realized our fault, the adventure went smooth. It was like playing photohunt on the road. I wish the HIV could do this for the summer outing. Maybe Kate can plan the race for us. haha

Pizza-All-You-Can @ Greenwich

CARLO: Anna Lee, Pizza-all-you-can tayo!

ANNA LEE: Sige. Kaso SELECTED establishments lang daw yun eh.

CARLO: Talaga? sana SELECTED yung sa SM.

I had a good laugh on this one. Kung hindi niyo gets kung bat ako natawa, hayaan niyo na lang. Baka nadaan lang sa delivery.

After the PE class, Carlo and I spent more than an hour munching pizza slices. I love the pepperoni flavored better. I ate a total of six slices plus some bits of the seventh. I tried so hard to eat up my last slice but the mere aroma of the cheese made me dizzy already. Too bad Leo came late for my left-over. haha. Carlo ate seven slices so I was not really behind him. And I am not really sure if this is a good one for me. I haven't had dinner but I still have a full stomach. I can't even drink too much water.

This Saturday, another adventure awaits me. I am so excited, I can't help but smile when I told my father about it. Parang last Saturday lang, girl's nightout with Kimie, Gelene and Hannah (CineKatipunan). And then this Saturday, another trip again. Lalalala.. Artsy trips thrill me.

a photoshoot where everything was an outtake

the points to highlight here are parents at the living room eating and singing siblings at the other room playing friend that's kimie came over vintage clothes and other stuffs digital camera junk foods from external sources and most especially a room with bare walls and hardly anything else but ironically they're all in gray we were polka dot people talking to white walls don't make our shadows appear but they refused to hear us beg shadows did appear so we posed our hearts away and bade goodbye to our sanity playground was the room as we went round about rummaging for anything to use even cola bottles weren't exempted the rest will be herstory

sali rin kayo..bilissss

"As part of a new BBC season called Generation Next, we want to see your pictures of how you spend your leisure time.. "

here's the link.

binigay yan ng prof ko. parang ansaya eh. bilis malapit na ang deadline. go go go.

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kfc photo was from ruth's camera

jump shot was taken at hannah's

in a child's world..

everything is green.

and as we grow old..











ewan.


nagiging utak na lang natin ang green?

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photo taken nov27

sunken garden/beach house

save the best TO last

HIV trip to Mall of Asia.

huling planadong lakad bago manginig sa lamig si Kate sa Canada.

xx

my blog is so boring.

i've made some changes due to my desire to migrate to beta which i successfully did. yey! i previewed the visual result and i found it too boring. so, i decided to post some happy photos.

ruth, carlo, kimie, kate and i @ cleyr's debut

life cycles

awww.. i almost ended my 3-year affair with blogger. for a couple of minutes, i decided to close this one and continue blogging in LJ. but then again, i realized how cute pics appear in blogger and other things..so, to maximize the beauty of blogspot, i decided to post our photoshoot pics.

pagpasensyahan niyo na, puyat lang kami kaya kung au-anong kalokohan na ginawa namin.

back when we were

young.
oh no no..younger.



(yeah, that's what i'm talking about.)

and learning about ties and edges,
and corkscrew and bottles..

enjoying the habits.
cycling everything from day to day to day.
then. suddenly.

we settle to be part of a pair.

to settle for interdependence.