sali rin kayo..bilissss

"As part of a new BBC season called Generation Next, we want to see your pictures of how you spend your leisure time.. "

here's the link.

binigay yan ng prof ko. parang ansaya eh. bilis malapit na ang deadline. go go go.

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kfc photo was from ruth's camera

jump shot was taken at hannah's

in a child's world..

everything is green.

and as we grow old..











ewan.


nagiging utak na lang natin ang green?

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photo taken nov27

sunken garden/beach house

save the best TO last

HIV trip to Mall of Asia.

huling planadong lakad bago manginig sa lamig si Kate sa Canada.

xx

a night preceeded by a day

"this is a night preceeded by a day that i have managed to forget about you. I was distracted by everything else in the world. its movement somehow, caused y life to move too. the day was a reflection of how simple i desire my life to be. the day is when i get to play around. and when the whole world is my disneyland.

this is a night when darkness creeps in and favours your return. i, once again remembers you, almost like a diety in my mind. in pitch-black, i see your shadows and smell your quiddity. my eyes are all shut tonight for they drowned in habitual tears and can no longer move to the surface and marvel at reality- a reality without you.

this is the night when after having the conclusion that i have moved on, the adamant moon presses rewind...and so, i am once again back to where i was before i woke up-- in a recurring dream of you and me. "

don't you think we've waited long enough?

i think so too. so what now?



on another note, what's the point of waiting to be safe just so you can be dangerous?
be dangerous or be safe. not both. or can i be both? hmmm..

and on a more irrelevant note, i still check on you. i want to hide from you, yeah. but.. i also want you to try and find me and make me feel like.. like you never lied. and move fast. in a matter of days, those information would be obsolete.

next thing, you kill me everytime i read that. but i still read it. maybe next time, i'd read it in front of a mirror so i could see life escaping from my eyes. they say that vision is unbelievable.

just when i thought im over chopping inches from my hair, i've found yet another cute haircut. i have read somewhere that cute and nice are empty adjectives. owwww.. now i know why they always say im cute. hahaha.

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the irony of it.

blogger sucks.

ayaw magupload ng photos.

epal.

naiinis na ako.
naiinis na talga.

skjhfuiowrqisugjrepoyogrjogjregtprwg316t8dfb325jh3763hwlsfhgpgjgkgfka!!!!!!!

hay.

visit my LJ account because i wont be updating this for a while.

my new disorder

is there such a psychological disorder about the distortion of one's perception of time? i already have 4 experiences wherein i didn't realize that the time inside my head was not the time of the outside world.

freaky.

but there is something freakier than that.

i will be going to binondo church tomorrow to meet someone i haven't seen ever-- my survey team leader. i dont know anything about places in manila. i feel so helpless. huhu.. anyone who wants to accompany me? (pwede ba yung may car?)

once again, i tried to blame all my misfortunes to my father, for not teaching how to drive! ARGH! i want to learn how to drive...mali pla.. I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO DRIVE.

goodluck na lang sa akin bukas sa Binondo. huhu.. naiiyak na ako. huhuhu talaga..

my blog is so boring.

i've made some changes due to my desire to migrate to beta which i successfully did. yey! i previewed the visual result and i found it too boring. so, i decided to post some happy photos.

ruth, carlo, kimie, kate and i @ cleyr's debut

each of us wants to be stuck somewhere we can't stay forever. the recurrence of such liking, i believe, makes us all human. personally, i want to stay inside my room forever, somewhere i can build my own world and not be judged for having one.

victor basa is so gorgeous. i just wished that ABS won't make a dupe out of him and capitalize on his gorgeousness. mukhang siyang tanga sa ASAP. sayang...

i love LOST. it's such a pity that i only got to watch the last three episodes for the season. they gave me nightmares. the variety of characters stayed within the confines of my imagination longer than the freaky bride in Sukob. it was psychologically disturbing for me. and i am so happy about it.

it makes me feel so good when something disturbs my mind. disturbance makes the state of mind unbalanced. therefore, it encourages homeostasis. achieveing balance may not be the most enjoyable quest but it is so fun to discover the equifinality aspect of life-- that goals can be achieved in a variety of ways. hayy.. complexities.

the other night, i had a dream about my mother owning a new cellphone. then the next morning, caloi had a new one. last night i had a dream that my father got a million peso in cash, i wonder who would be having such in real life. SHARE!

what is optimism?

"what's wrong with living in a dream world?
---you have to wake up. " (the secret life of bees)



















what's good about living in a nightmare?

--you can still wake up.

hayyy.. sana maging masaya ka.

sana sana sana talaga! :D

ARTWORK.

tomorrow will be a normal day.
normal.
normal.
normal.


i must not expect anything.









(pero secret lang natin ah. natatakot na talaga ako. kasama sa list ng fears ko ang pagpapakita sa ibang tao ng aking mga gawa. dapat minimal lang ang effort ko sa gawa na to para hindi ako masyadong maattach. hayy.. insecurities.)




sabi nga ni leo, bahala na ang justice league!

life cycles

awww.. i almost ended my 3-year affair with blogger. for a couple of minutes, i decided to close this one and continue blogging in LJ. but then again, i realized how cute pics appear in blogger and other things..so, to maximize the beauty of blogspot, i decided to post our photoshoot pics.

pagpasensyahan niyo na, puyat lang kami kaya kung au-anong kalokohan na ginawa namin.

back when we were

young.
oh no no..younger.



(yeah, that's what i'm talking about.)

and learning about ties and edges,
and corkscrew and bottles..

enjoying the habits.
cycling everything from day to day to day.
then. suddenly.

we settle to be part of a pair.

to settle for interdependence.

pakikiramay

nung tuesday may isang kawawang kitten na nasa tapat ng bintana ng kwarto ko. edi ayan, nalibang naman ako kasi kulay black siya tas anlungkot niya. picture perfect talaga! sige lang picture lang ako ng picture.

makalipas ang ilang minuto..
bumuhos ang ulan. nakakaawa siya kasi hindi pa developed ang eyesight niya. hindi niya alam kung saan siya pupunta. lalagyan ko sana siya ng pantakip para hindi siya mabasa kaso nga lang may harang ang window ko kaya hindi ko siya maabot. buti na lang lumapit siya.

tuwang-tuwa naman ako kasi feeling ko naligtas ko yung kawawang pusa mula sa malakas na ulan...

kahapon bago ako bumangon narinig ko yung mga bata sa labas: "ayy kadiri naman butas-butas pa yung katawan!" i was still in denial. ayaw ko pang tignan. tapos kanina nagreklamo yung kapatid ko, bakit daw ambaho. hanggang sa maamoy ko na rin.

ahhhh! hindi ko matanggap na pinaghirapan ko pang gawan siya ng pantakip sa ulan..nagasgas pa yung kamay ko. tapos mamatay lang pala siya! sa bagay, hindi naman niya siguro choice na mamatay agad. at sa bagay ulit, lahat naman ng pusa eh namamatay.

ambobo, pero parang nabuhay lang ata ang kitten na iyon para maging subject ng mga photos na ito. kaya ito, im extending the existence of that kitten, kahit man lang sa blog ko.

hindi man lang siya nabigyan ng name. huhuhu..

parang bigla tuloy akong natakot mamatay. yung pakiramdam na bigla na lang malilimutan ang lahat ng pinaghirapan mo nung buhay ka pa. sana mamatay ako in a dramatic way, as in kontrobersyal. ayaw kong mamatay dahil sa katandaan. gusto kong maging tulad ni Jesus at ni Plato na namatay at the peak of their fame (yaaak as if sisikat ako!) kaya naman yung legacy nila eh nagpersist. ayokong mabalewala ang buhay ko matapos kong mabuhay. kaya as much as possible, gusto kong dinodocument ang nangyayari sa akin para naman may memories!

hayy naku, yung kitten kasi eh!
sana nasa heaven na siya..

i really love this photograph.dati ko pa to nakita at natuwa akong gawan ng mga istorya. pero etong version na to ang paborito ko! andrama, oo. well, that's me!

(shit! ayaw malagay nung photo.. click nio na lang)

i want to go to you.

i want to hold your hand as i mention every single thing i like about you. you are one person that deserves a second look. but i went beyond what you deserve. i stared at you as if nothing else exists. i never thought that a single touch would cause such trauma to the placid approach of my mindset right now. you have destroyed the barrier of uncomplication and crossed my garden of vicious love cycles.

congratulations.
i want to go to you.

and stay.

now.

but the several minutes of my bliss is over. all i can do is wish and see in my mind's eye what you are blinded about.

i want to go to you and see if you are worth the nuissance you are causing me. it doesn't really matter what the result could be. because peeking into your existence is just my main concern.

i want to go to you. and let you define me. and let you into my everyday verve and birth. put me on a pedestal and make my existence as surreal as it could be.

wait.

i may now want something more than just going to you.

but if ever i cannot carry out this yearning, at least stay where you are-- where i can see the place i want to go to..

even if i really can't.

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