anatomy is destiny

"anatomy is destiny"-freud

i dont really agree on that statment. but the evidences are all over this earthly earth i live in. just before i opened the pc, i watched an episode of showbiz stripped. it was about sexy stars/ stupid girls telling the world about their sugar papa...daaahh..

in their case, yeah, anatomy is destiny.

pero daaahh..paano naman ako?!

i cant let that stupid statement be the guiding motto of my life! paano na lang ang future ko?!

i cant be an athlete--too short.
definitely not a sexy star--too..ahmm.. err..im not too sexy.
i cant be a nose-- my olfactory sense isnt that extraordinary(especially now that i have sipon).
i cant be anything if my anatomy would be the only basis for my destiny.

yeah..maybe, anatomy could be a destiny. it could be an easy choice for those who are gifted enough on the anatomy part. but for people like me who are not, we still have other choices-- choices like disagreeing on this caging statement of a scientist.

daahh.. maghahanap nga ako ng
picture ni freud..
tignan natin kung bakit being a
scientist ang naging destiny niya..

ang sadistang pananaw sa kalawakan

we watched a series of documentaries for our natsci1 class entitled hyperspace. wla lang. just a new view of the universe.

on my present status, science is not impressing me.

basta, ang main point nung hyperspace was that we humans are so lucky to survive this universe. that the "earth is under threat. our mission-- to survive." wow! how catchy noh?!

pero going through the many facts it has presented, parang maiinis ka na. two parts lang ng series ang napanood namin-- about the dangers brought about by asteroids and then by blackholes. ayyy...naku. parang sobrang nag-enjoy yung creators ng docu sa pagpoponder on what way ba mawwipe out ang population ng mundo.

i dont really care if i die tomorrow.

all i care is that i live today.

hmm...pero sa bagay, how is today without scientists?

sorry sorry..
naisip ko lang kasi baka masyado nang sumosobra ang pageexplore na ginagawa ng mga tao sa mundo.

sa pananaw ko kasi, the value we give to life is proportional to the number of things belonging to the unknown category.

the return of my stalking episodes

there are things in life that are not meant to be left unknown.

after foolishly, lazily and impatiently waiting for destiny to take its step on leading me to his name...i finally said to her:

"damnasyon! napaka-useless mo! tumabi ka nga dyan at gagamitin ko ang commRes powers ko!!!!!!!!!!!!"


and then it happened!


waaaaaaaaaah!!

i finally know his name!

sabi ni micah, at i agree din, masarap marinig/malaman na binabanggit ng mga tao ang name mo...pero bago yan, mas masaya pala kapag alam mo kung ano ang pangalan ng taong gusto mong banggitin!


ohhhhhhhhhh yes! alam ko na ang name niya..at matapos kong tumalon mula sa kinalalagyan ng pc papuntang room ko at pabalik ulit sa pc...nagpatuloy pa ako sa paghahanap! at yun...nalaman ko na rin ang STUDENT NUMBER! freshman din siya.. 19 years old na nga lang--->that is the case kung reliable ang friendster niya.

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ang friendster picture nia..anyone who
knows kung sino ang character na to?!
tag nio naman..please?!?
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how did i do it?

>>>kinailangan ko muna ng malakas na will power. pinapraktis ko na nga yung script ko eh: "sir, pwede po bang malaman ang first name ni mr. xxx?"... o kya.."uy! i dropped my pen, pwede malaman name mo?" or... (with matching props na bonnet at toy gun) "holdup to! labas mo id mo!"

>>>oiii...pag meron ka nang will power, punta ka sa site ng upd.edu.ph (haha..una nga pinipilit ko sa address eh updiliman.edu eh!)...tapos i-click mo ang universal tool ng up stalkers..ngaun ko lang to actually na-discover eh!! wheeeeeeee!!

dandararan..............................................

PEOPLE SEARCH!!!

***note: kailangan ng last name..

>>>voila! malalaman mo na ang up webmail, fulname, college at department ng stalkee mo!

>>>pero pero...kung nararramdaman mo na freshie siya, edi hanapin niyo sa final list ng CRS online!!! click here!!! ----> jan mo naman malalaman ang student number!

wheeeeeeeeee!

so ngaun hindi ko na kailangang holdapin ang id niya!!

wheeeeeeee!!

trivia:

>>alam nio ba na xientian ang tao sa batch 05 ng diliman na asa may pinakadulo ang surname kung alphabetically arranged ang list?!?

this is a milestone!!!!!! bwahaha..

si paula zurbano!

at siyempre pa....

isang HIV ang 2nd to the last!!!!

CATHERINE ZU簽IGA!!!

wheeee..

amazing!

congratulate niyo naman ako!

wannabe

wala lang.

sa laptop, meron akong isang folder na ang title ay novel attempts. haha..nakakatawa kasi napaka-dreamer ko para isiping makakgawa ako ng isang novel...pero mga ilang pahina pa lamang eh pumipikit-pikit na ang mata ko at magsasawa na rin ako sa topic na ginagawa ko..

narealize ko lang yun nung nabasa ko blog ni leo..

hmm..

1. sa simula ng story, nagmmake love ang 2 tao tas may tumawag sa bahay ng girl..tas malamang hindi niya sinagot tas yung answering machine yung sumagot. tas yun pla yun ay isang former classmate niya na nagbigay ng news na patay na si sumbody. si sumbody ay isang importanteng tao sa kanya...first love of sum sort...tas... ehehe..hindi ko na alam ang mangyayari. mbbother ata siya at ittrace niya yung buhay nung guy. hindi ko alam!


"she stared at the blank ceiling. and at the blank ceiling, she projected the images she tried to bury so deep but are now escaping the burrows of her heartbreak...as if transported by a time machine, she saw everything, and like the way it was before, slipping away from her coward heart..."

--ang aking fave lines..

2. "the right mistake" basta..ehehe..labstori ulet. pero hindi about two people. sa babae lang.

basta. may isang babae na kakatapos lang sa isang heartbreak tapos napunta siya sa isang white room. tas nameet niya doon ang isang lalaki na sobrang perfect. turned out, nasa bachelor's pad siya ni "the guy in your dreams". tapos magfflashback sila doon sa mga panahon na pinakita ni babae kung paano siya magmahal..its actually a therapy for people who dont deserve to get hurt. tas yung ending...hindi ko pa rin alam eh! basta happy ending yan...magmamadre ata xa..joke!

3. "food for the gods" istorya ng isang babae na namatay. basta! its another look on what heaven really is. batsa! parang greek mythology pero imbis na ambrosia, ang food ng mga gods ay gummi bears. tas yung mga namamatay ay nagiging cells ng mga gods. iaauction ka nila pagdating mo doon, kung kanino magiging pakipakinabang ang mga natutunan mo sa earth...ganun. ang bayad eh man's knowledge. kunwari, yung pagkakaformulate ng theory of relativity, etc. pero xempre hindi sila todo magbid kasi bka sumobrang talino naman ang mga tao.

back dun sa babae, sa kanya binid yung mga computers hence nagstart ang technological advances sa earth. natatakot yung mga gods kasi sobrang tumatalino na ang mga tao...kaya sosolusyonan nila by rewinding...kaso...eh! ayoko nang ikwento! masaya maxado..hehe..

marami pa..kaso asa laptop. nakakatamad alalahanin! tsaka bday pa ni angeline mamaya! kailangan ko ng beauty rest!

sabi sau..maganda ang green eh!

..lalo na pag katabi ang red.

(a picture that generates questions more than it captures answers)

(para raw binubuhat ng wires ang langit..)

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*these are photos stolen from somebody else.

while waiting for my red nails to dry up..

i want to post something.
i want to erase something from my fone's outbox:

let's do it both!

here are the list of the male celebrities i like or i have a crush on //kung ano ang gusto k sa kanila:
(in no particular order)

#### adam brody/ seth in The O.C. // sense of humor, wit

####oliver james- the guy in the movies what a girl wants and raise your voice.//voice

####ney- 6cyclemind vocalist// i haven't figured out yet..

####christophe lemaire- lacoste desinger// his designs, his eyes, his legs!

####jake gylenhall// basta!

####vocalist ng clickfive//kamukha ng hair niya ang hair ni RFE "cause she's bitter sweet...she's just the girl im lookin for.." (haha..yan kasi ang pinakikinggan ko at this moment!)

####ryan gosling// gosh! ganda ng facial features!

#### topher grace- in good company, monalisa smile// his eyes

####chris martin-//err..andami!

####spiderman

####vic- drummer ng bamboo

####draco malfoy

####edmund of narnia- skandar keynes//kamukha ng somebody

####mark wallberg//eyes

####jonathan togo-ryan wolfe in csi: miami// ang kanyang pagiging o.c.

####bugz- starstruck// hair?? ah basta...ewan

####jay- queer eye--yung sa culture// hmm...ewan din

####jason kennedy- e! news weekend host// gwapo eh!

####vocalist ng maroon5- errr...anu nga bang name?! //hot!

####ping medina- kuya bogs// ang delicate ng facial features niya! ganda ng skin!

####stephen of laguna beach//gwapo..tsaka payat..tsaka gaganda ng shades niya!

hayyy..creepy..umaatake na ang mga peste sa bahay namin..kailangan ko na raw matulog!

christophe lemaire,etc.

ang ganda ng color green!


ang nerdy ng designer ng lacoste. pero i find him hot. khit malaki ang probability na gay siya!


amazing person.

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"and we could have everything and everyday we make it more
impossible."

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i wish we could both realize how we are alike. but sadly,we are bounded, not by our limitations, but by expectations. we expect a lot from each other yet we clearly know that those are far from occuring.

what happened?

we used to know each other well. but now that we are both doing well, an imaginary distance filled our closely-knitted lives. well, i wont blame anyone about this, unlike what i usually do whenever someone dear to me lets my hand slip away. i wont even blame myself.

but you know what...

it's amazing that in spite of the created distance, you are still the only person who can capture the raw image of me dropping a tear for an unimportant something. i guess, you still mean more to me than any other guy i've met. or maybe because i know, that it would tear you apart to see me sobbing. because you know, your heart is worth breaking into pieces just for me. i just love that idea. and i hope, we could live our everyday living with that in mind.

i could not say, "i wish we could settle our differences." like what i've said, we are really so alike.

i could not even say, "i wish you could love me more." in fact, you have loved me more than enough.

i blurted out to leo that blogs are not really reliable. but what is more unreliable is the tough facade we are showing each other everyday, as if we are both unaware that we used to be happy

but now what??

we're stong?

we're great?

we're good enough?

we're better?

we're better than the other?

but we are not contestants here, right?

we're a team.

(remember that anna li.)

so now, i am asking myself to stop feeling superior over the mind that feeds me every bit of anything inside and outside of me. to stop undermining him because... of many reasons...but above all... because he doesn't deserve it.

sorry.

i really want to be a better person, but i only did it for the earthly, friendly, academic,etc. standards.

now, im focusing on the daughterly.

i wish i could do our before-bed ritual even if i am so old now.

"good night! i love you! sweet dreams!"

blank canvass

haha..

nakakatamad talaga.


let's forget about the past!


after all...may bago akong shades...wheee!