binabaligtad ko na naman ang araw at gabi! nga pla, sa mga magdodonate ng journal..RED ALERT: 6 pages na lang..ahhh! dalian nio naman bumili!

people see the world through different ways-- through numbers, through particles, through premisses and conclusions, through words, through lines and colors, through notes and rest, and through anything imaginable. but converging all these ways in order to see a unified version of what is the place we are existing is quite impossible.

these ways that light up our minds are of different wavelengths. although they coincide on some aspects, there are also contradictions. And these contradictions are proofs that perfection can never be achieved. even science would support me when i say that the universe is not perfect. just consider the existence of life. we are here because of an accident, a fault.

so what now?

i guess, the most probable thing that we could all do is accept the imperfections of this world we are assigned to live in, as well as everything in it-- including the imperfections of your romantic interest, of your parents, of the zits on your face, of the influence of the omnipresent constant that is time, of the vague concept of love, of the mood swings you experience, of the lovehandles in your belly, of the complexity of every situation you catch yourself in.

but accepting everything as what they are plainly is boring. you can stop there, yes. but you can also continue to seek the ideals behind these imperfections. you can question yourself, and by seeking answers you once again accept. then you can stop there or question the answer once again.

ideally, you should not bother if the answers you found are right or wrong, because remember, we are trying to accept imperfections here, including our frequent inability to detect what is right or wrong. but that is just an idea. of course, ideas thrive on the mind alone. and ideas are just stars that we gaze upon during a walk. it is still the road we travel in that we should focus the majority of our attention. and besides most of the time, ideas contradict our feelings. and then again, here comes accepting and stopping there or questioning this imperfection further.
i'll stop there.

you must not expect me to answer every imperfection there is. because like all earthlings,i am also bound by questions. ignore me if you wish. i'll just accept it.

by the way, dont confront me with the question that this view is just an excuse for people to make mistakes. you should have known as of now that even if we dont have excuses, we still commit mistakes. and i believe that making sense of these mistakes is better than just regeretting them and letting them haunt us.

i am not trying to dictate how you live your life here. i just want to provide a possible choice. and also, i want to air my own state. i somehow accepted that my present desire is of no question, impossible. and i stopped right there, for the mean time. through the example of this decision, if you wish to listen to my suggestion, i just want to tell you that accepting and questioning is a matter of trusting yourself, because you, of all people must know better what to do, and what to think.

what to feel?

ahmm... that's an imperfection and i dont seek any answer for that.